About Me
I sit here and think, what happened? What is happening? What went wrong? I can only guess. This new stirring within is far too hidden to know.
innocent bystanders
My Jo
My Friends
My Family that still cares
neutralized threats
Malice
paul (taka, damien, and whatever he tries to pass off as his multiple personalities now)
First things first....I'm opening this to the general public...because I just don't care anymore...and its not like it matters anymore anyway
Anyway onto the topic now. I have now officially been abandoned by most of the people who I at one point thought cared about me. It started with my friends when I started dating my current girlfriend. They no longer wanted anything to do with either of us. Yeah I'll admit it hurt me deeply but I had to be the rock for her and let her know that all would be ok and eventually everything would be right with the world once again.
Next thing you know they all of a sudden care again and want to start hanging out. "Oh why haven't you called?" Why haven't you done this or that or blah blah blah??? I'll tell you why...because you seemed to want absolutely nothing to do with us thats why. Oh it was just a misunderstanding? Fine lets start hanging out again. Yeah thats exactly what happened....guess I was the fool for actually thinking it was true...more like too good to be true. So yet again I fall for the act and get hurt. Yet again I'm the rock and spend countless nights comforting my girlfriend. How could I be such an idiot?
After that my cousin decided its time for him to grow up and go to the Air Force or whatever was going through his mind when he decided to go. How would I know? We went from being not just cousins but also best friends to me not even being invited to his going away party or even getting a phone call saying he was leaving. I found out he left shortly before he graduated from boot camp...thats how much he cared that I knew what was going on with his life. Yet again I kept my emotions bottled up and remained a rock.
Now tonight my own parents decide that I'm not good enough for them. Thats right as of around 6 or 6:30 pm est on December 28th 2006 I have been disowned by my parents. Oh joy. Well you know what fuck it. I'm done. They think I'm not good enough for them? Well fuck them. They aren't worth my time anymore. I'll be damned if I ever speak to them again. As for your pity my dear reader. Don't even think about it. Pity is not welcome. It never will be. I just needed to let some stuff out...its bad to let this kind of a rage build up for too long. So for know I'll be content to sit here with my alcohol and let the emotions out on paper so to speak. Fuck being a rock. Find someone else to take the fall for you.
Memories lost but not forgotten:
Its official - 2006-12-28
random quizzes - 2006-03-29
good old raids - 2006-03-20
alone...? - 2005-11-23
still don't know - 2005-11-01